I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I am the one big annoyance of your life.

Please, why don’t you just leave me, leave me alone. Alone so that I can not annoy you anymore. I have learned my lesson, I will leave you all alone from now on.

I’m sorry that I let you, I knew I would end up annoying you eventually. I guess it have just been building up for the 4 years we have been friends.

Congratulations though, you lasted longer than everyone else. Most people are sick of being friends with me after a year.

Just understand I’m sorry that I annoyed you.

Now leave me alone, alone to annoy myself.

I always wonder who really reads this. I can see the the page views go up, but who is there?

Part of me can’t help but hope that it is this one specific person, this person that I cant get out of my mind.

I see you all the time, but I can never gain the courage to say anything to you. There have been but a few rare occasions on which I was able to talk to you.

Sitting here at my computer, up pops your name, you signed onto Skype, but do I say Hi? No. Do I say anything at all? Nope.

I am too worried that you don’t feel about me, how I feel about you. That I am about to embarrass my self by talking to you.

I guess what I am trying to say is why don’t you say something to me sometime? Maybe it will stir up some courage for me to talk to you.

So here we are, I got home less then a week ago and already I am traveling again. I didn’t even have time to fully unpack.
This car ride thing though, it seems to be getting easier. I guess on the last two trips I must have purged my mind of all the excess thoughts. Now I can just sit back and enjoy.
Although there is this one thought, well not so much a thought as a person, that I just cannot get out of my mind.
Does it bother me?
Not really, maybe someday I will tell them about the year I spent in the car thinking about them. Hopefully they will find it cute.
-Dallas